Toasting to Dad

My two older brother's and I got a rare treat today. We got to hail a toast to our Dad on Father's Day. This may not sound so unusual, but for us, it was the first time in 28 years (at least) that we were able to be with our Dad in person on his day. We had a wonderful breakfast at the Trolley Station on Warm Springs, near his home. He looked fabulous, still has his charm and wit at age 84. Later, Mike, Dallas and I hiked up Table Rock and had a grand view of the Treasure Valley. It was cool and overcast, good for a hike. We sat on a rock at the top and watched a little lizard having a sunbath. He was very cute, trying to blend in.

I also went over to John's Dad's house and gave him a card and a brownie. He was happy to see me, he sits and fiddles with his stuff. Ora wasn't feeling well and had been asleep. Hug your loved ones whilst you can. They may not always be around.

Good day, good times with good people.

decluttering

My big brother Mike and his son Dallas helped me clear out my storage unit, thus saving $70 a month. Whoo hooo. That is a great feeling. I am now going to go through all the millions of boxes and declutter. I have decided to follow council and make my house a house of order. It may take me all summer, but I will prevail. My motivation is to get my car back into the garage by Sept. I really don't like to park in the driveway or scrape icy windows. Pretty good incentive I think.

Well, off to clear a few boxes. Declutter away!

A Garden Spot

My sister Barb helped me to create a new sitting area on my patio. We set up the furniture and planted flowers in pots. It is also flanked by a "real garden." 2 tomato plants, 4 red pepper plants, a row of carrots, a row of radishes. Marigolds and petunias around the border. Very pretty. The breeze comes through and kicks up the fragrances. A bar table with 2 stools, a rustic bench, A custom made seat and footstool cut from a log by Mike, and an umbrella that shades is all. It's like having another room!.

Now in the a.m. I can eat my breakfast and read the paper out there. I can water the plants and visit them in the evening to see if they need another drink of water. It is near heaven.

A garden spot just for me.

Spring breezes

My dear friend Shelley, turned up at work just as I was leaving for the day. I think she appeared as an angel, to sweep me away... to help me unwind and defrag after a highly emotional day.

We ended up on her back patio, sitting in the shade and sipped beverages and scarfed down chips. It was heavenly. I was able to vent out my emotions that I had pent up inside. Share frustrations about the teaching headaches concerning children, and the idiocy of some choices from administration. I had stood up for myself in a meeting, probably not in the most professional way, but alas, I never the less stated my feelings about not placing a student in a class for the next year. Tensions were high. Not a good scene.

On the way to Shelley's house, I had to mail a book to Denise. I paid for the transaction at the Post office with my debit card. I honestly could not remember my pin number. The gentleman was very patient and helped me out. I was very stressed and tired and proceeded to Shelley's. Angels attended me, the one dearest was in the flesh as she listened to my woes and frustrations. Dear friends are hard to beat. They show up when needed. Thanks Dear Shelley.

early morning entry or why in the world am I awake?

Wondering why I keep waking up in the wee hours of the a.m.  Not sure. Too much on my mind. Being alone in a house is hard. I sometimes just miss the everyday sounds of another person's movements. Don't take those sounds for granted. Just knowing someone else is in the house can be comforting. Hearing them open a door, rustle around in the bathroom, getting dressed, opening the fridge, getting a snack and leaving a mess. The sounds that are just there. It's quiet. very quiet. Sometimes when my kids were little, I would just want peace and quiet. I used to hear people say, oh no.... just enjoy them, they will be gone soon enough. I would just shudder and say, you're wrong. I now know what they were saying. I bought a huge 3 foot stuffed white polar bear who sits in my living room. He has personality and greets me each day as I come home, but, alas, he is quiet. 

All quiet is not bad though.... I do enjoy my solitude, especially after spending 8 or more hours at school in a lively room of 21 first graders. I cherish those quiet moments when I can sit on my couch, put up my feet and just enjoy the moments of silence. It's at the dawning of the day, the tucking in at night and other moments in the day that catch me by surprise that I realize I am really alone.

Cinco De Mayo

Cinco De Mayo

Trying to explain the term to First Graders is funny. I do have some Hispanics that get it. I celebrated by going out to dinner with my Secret Seven girlfriends. We had some sad news. One of our group (Dawn) has a brand new grandbaby that was diognosed with cistic fibrosis. Her little family is in my prayers.

I can't spell. Just get used to it. As Mark Twain once said "I feel sorry for the man that can only spell a word one way."

Feeling like at age 51 all my fat has migrated around my middle. Very uncomfortable. Guess it would help if I worked out and ate better. hmmmm. maybe. No one to impress.

personal revelation

"Enduring isn't always overcoming. Sometimes it is being crushed to powder with his name on our lips."
Stephen Peterson
Lesson learned in endurance. Last 5  years have been that crushing sensation, but in the process I have become well aquainted with my Savior. Through his mercy, grace and love, I have been able to find the peace I never thought possible.

Sitting in the temple yesterday, I had a revelation to my mind that helped clarify my thinking about John and his brother. I realized that amends can happen after death. I am working to make amends to him that need doing in order for me to progress. He also is making amends to me. I can feel them and I know when they are offered. It is up to me to accept them and forgive him. Such a hard process, but necessary.

Grateful to be apart of this great Gospel of Jesus Christ. No other name on earth matters. No one else can heal me or give me the peace I desire. 

My next challenge is find Mine errand of the Lord. What will he have me do. Find it and carry it out.